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Mirage TYL! Ryohei x Reader .:ONESHOT:.

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Mirage

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The secrets in my dreams tell me
About the sorrows that I’ll come across
I must yearn for mercy


"Tell me..." I said as I clenched my fists , trying to hold my tears, "You're leaving again, right? So, tell me."

He bit his bottom lip and turned away. In our home, it was completely silent. How could it not be? This thing, this issue, this secret of his, suddenly burtsts out in the middle of the night. I should be screaming right now, throwing vases, books, glasswares at him... But no... I want out home to be peaceful, and quiet right now.

Our house was not fancy, it was simple. A japanese style house is what we agreed upon before. It was a bit expensive, but it was worth it. Right now, we were standing near the door of our bedroom.

"What's your reason of leaving without saying anything?!" I shouted. "Are you seeing some other woman? Gambling problems? WHAT!?"

"I can't tell you..." he replied. "Please understand. I'm doing this for you..."

"You know what?" I exclaimed, entering my room. "Screw you. You can't even trust me!"

Your pained appearance and my greeting
A gaze that was shut as if tired.


I grabbed a luggage that I've been hiding in my closet, and took a deep breathe. Ryohei still stood there, his fists clenched, eyes shut tight, and shaking. He didn't even bother to follow me.

"How long..." he asked, his voice shaking. "How long have your belongings been packed?"

"1 month." I answered.

"I'm sorry. But, please don't do this..."

I don’t wish for anything more than these
The sickened promise is stinking and hidden;
I never knew…


"Fuck you." I said as I took off my ring and throwing at his head. "Just... go find a stupid blonde bitch to lie. I've had enough of this." With that, I left the room, our eyes didn't meet.

Stop me. Take my wrist. Take the car keys. Hug me. DON'T JUST STAND THERE!!

"[y/n]!" he shouted. A little bit, I felt happy. Then he hugged me from behind. A warm and tight hug. This wasn't a 'don't leave me' hug. It was the exact opposite. My tears started to stream down from my eyes.

A dream that I can’t recover
My memories grew dim
My pains became dull and my heart cracked


I felt myself become numb. All he did say was 'sorry' this night. I didn't want to hear that. I wanted something else...

"This is your last chance." I said in a firm voice. "I want the truth, Ryo-"

"You can't handle the truth!" he shouted just before he started to cry. "You'll be in danger if I told you so!"

"You won't be able to protect me? I can't let you do that? I'd die if I let something bad happen to you?" I said. Those overused lines... Dramatic but true.

It wasn't like this before. Those cliche lines me and Ryohei shared were full of love. More tears poured down...

"You'll never leave me right, Ryo-kun?" I asked, intertwining our fingers.

"Of course not! I love you to the extreme!" he replied, landing his soft lips on mine.

"I love you..." I whispered as I pulled away from the small kiss.

"I love you too."


Those memories are better to be thrown away in a fire. Burn it. Burn everything. What happened to him? Was he always like this?

My burnt out soul is simply a cooled mountain of ash
My tears are filled with pain


"Let go." I ordered, trying to get out of his hug. "You lying bastard. I bet you never even loved me!"

He won't budge. Time for my last plan of leaving him... "Please..." I begged. "I don't want to get hurt more and more."

He loosened his hug and placed his hand on my cheeks. Our eyes met... His eyes looked so... sad, concerned and loving. With his thumbs, he wiped my tears away. "I'll always love you, no matter what." he said before. I smiled. "I'm sorry I can't tell you."

"I don't anymore!" I shouted at the top of my lungs. "Stop saying those things!! It doesn't make me feel better. . . I-it... It makes me feel worse!"

What lies have I shouted. I want to hear more loving words from him. What the hell is wrong with me. God, tell me. . . What have I done wrong?

"Ryohei, before leaving..." I said as I held his hands, "I have a secret to tell you..." He looked at me with a glint of hope in his eyes. Was he praying that I was gonna stay? Of course he did. He does love me and stuff.
"You saved me from using this..." My hand reached for a pocket on the bag and brought out a gun, and with shaking hands, I lend it to him.

So tell me tell me the reason why
How could you do this to me?
You break my heart and you made me cry


I finally left. That was too much drama for me to take in that night. That night, I kept on walking and walking. My heart was broken and shattered, I couldn't stop my tears. I really loved him, but he made me feel like I was a child, a very weak one... All he had to do was tell the truth he was hiding. Was it so big that he choose that one of us goes? My feet were aching from walking. Where do I go now? Where will this road lead me?

The night lights kept my night a bit lively. The sound of people having fun and the such... They were drunk, having parties, celebrating their happy lives. In a corner, there was I. I who sat at the end of the bar, drowning my problems in liquor. And then, he came. "What are you doing, woman?" he asked. "You should be at home?"

"Waiting for a savior." I replied. "What brings you to this bar, Gokudera?"

"None of your business. Get up, I'm driving you home."

"I have no more home."

"What? ... I'll... take you to mine... Tell me what happened when we get there."
Song Fic. Shinkirou by Loveholic. First Person POV. TYL! Ryohei x Reader // Hints of TYL!Gokudera x Reader

I'm tired of him leaving me all alone. And he keeps on telling useless reasons. Does he think I'm a 14 year old? Am I really that weak in his sight? I want to end this all! Please...
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NellielMoon's avatar
So..
sequel? Or nah